Looking back, looking forward
Back in 2021 as a new priest and curate in a parish with no incumbent, feeling tried and tested, I took myself off to Devon for a few days’ retreat musing over this verse (Psalm 61:2):
From the ends of the earth I call to you,
I call as my heart grows faint;
lead me to the rock that is higher than I.
With my OS Map App at the ready, I headed off to find a high rock. The first I came to, Heltor Rock, was too risky to climb alone and I felt frustrated at missing out on the promise of a panorama. The next, Blackingstone Rock, was even higher and seemed an equally impossible climb. I circled, vainly hoping for an easy way up and was astounded to find an 19th century set of steps with iron railings attached to the rock, so up I went to experience wonderful 360° views.
My heart lifted on this high rock. Later that same day I came across a prayer in a chapel that resonated: you are the steps we climb; you are the rail we cling to on the way. God’s message to me in providing a staircase to the rock was clear: I am your rock and your salvation (Psalm 62:2) and as Jesus promised, I am the way, the steps and the rail for the climb.
Fast forward to 2025: Returning to Blackingstone Rock recently I had a different experience where, in the quiet vast space, I felt the shelter of his presence as I sat on the rock. It would be dishonest though to omit to mention the fear I felt on the climb and until I was safely seated in the middle.
September brings change for many of us and change can make us fearful. Even the return to activities that have just been on pause over the summer can create some nervousness, and for those starting a new school year as learners or staff we might feel keyed up, and more so if it’s a new setting. For some there will be a mix of nerves and excitement at a transformative moment in their faith journey – being confirmed on 21st September.
With the opportunity to be creative I came up with this haiku-style verse and an image of me on the rock
Small in great landscape
Still, exposed, yet safe and sound
Wholly surrounded
If you find yourself anxious as you look forward, may you find in God that high rock that provides a place of refuge and a sense of security knowing
The Lord’s unfailing love surrounds the one who trusts in him
(Psalm 32:10)